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57 days and feeling cocky.

In 57 days, it will have been one year to the date since I’ve had a migraine.

Cinco de Mayo to be exact.  So, I’m planning on celebrating with a Corona.  Or maybe more than one if I’m feeling it.

I’m feeling cocky about being amongst the “non-migrainers” for almost a year now.

I would be more surprised to have a migraine now, than the surprise and wonderment I felt back in the days when I was celebrating a 49 day, even a 20 day or 11 day non-migraine streak.

I’m still rocking the daily anti-migraine smoothie.  Still taking my arsenal of supplements daily.  And I’m still not sure what makes the migraines stay away.  Especially after I continue to have migraine triggers in my life daily.

With that said, still feeling cocky and looking forward to posting a picture of that Corona on Cinco de Mayo, 2017.  May enjoy a green beer in addition to my green smoothie in the meantime, but looking forward to how sweet that victory beer will taste.

Cheers.

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Happy Migraine New Year!

Only one migraine in 2016.

One in 365 days, compared to 2 a week, resulting in being affected 4-5 days in a week when I first started this blog!

That’s definitely something good to log on the pros side of the list of 2016.

Still not sure what is working, the anti-migraine smoothie every day, the supplements, or something different.  But please just keep doing what you’re doing!

Happy New Year everyone!  And Happy Migraine New Year!  I hope it’s an even better migraine year that last year!

Celebrating day 201

201 days since my last migraine.  And before that, there had been a 240 day streak between migraines.

Not bad stats, not bad at all.  I’m almost getting to a point of being cocky.  My husband and I went out to dinner last week, it had been 21 years to the day that we had met.  Crazy.  As we were walking up to the restaurant, he said he had remembered going there together once before.  I quickly replied with my memory of getting a migraine when we had gone there together years before.  I then said “not today though, I won’t get a migraine.”  Call that The Secret type of thinking, but I honestly believed, no migraines for me man.  Not happening.

So, I’ll call it a 201 day celebration today when I go and try rock climbing for the first time! Sometimes you’re put in the right place at the right time.  I started talking to someone at a Halloween party a few weeks ago, and found out she was heavily into rock climbing.  I told her I’d always wanted to try it.  By the time I left the party, I had her phone number with a promise to text her to set up a date to meet because “now is the time for me to try this!”

Definite bucket list item.  Just thought it would have been 20 years ago, rather than starting something new at 45 years old.  But, bucket list it is.  Who knows where this may lead.  Excited and nervous at the same time!

So, I’ll be sipping on my anti-migraine smoothie after taking my supplements this morning, thankful that I’m counting day 201 as a huge success in this migraine battle, with a cocky attitude!

Rock on.

In a pinch…

Traveling with the fam last week, hours a day in the car, making my green smoothie, or even bringing it frozen just wasn’t in the cards.

I picked up the Naked green machine boosted smoothie, and that with my supplement arsenal, seemed to work out just fine.  I wasn’t about to totally chance it and fully skip out on green smoothies, as on vacation I tend to not eat or drink according to my regular lifestyle!  🙂  While I don’t think it has nearly the same benefits of my homemade anti-migraine smoothie, it seemed to work in a pinch.

And by the way, it was delicious!  It tasted like apple juice.  Even my youngest braved trying it.  I kept telling her it tasted just like apple juice, and when she tried a sip, her response was “Um, no mom, it does not.”  Oh well, it worked for me!

73 days migraine free and counting!

240 is where the streak stops…

Tears welled up in my eyes as I stood with my bowl full of dehydrated frozen chicken with noodles and veggies waiting for their turn to be cooked at the Mongolian BBQ place for lunch today.  I looked around, and with great fear, said out loud to my husband, “I think I’m getting a migraine.  I am getting a migraine.”

I almost went to the car so I could really cry.  But the food looked so good, and let’s face it, I love food, so I rallied.

Getting a migraine today felt like failure.  I know that’s super lame.  Going 240 days without a migraine when they used to come up to 3 times a week, that’s no failure, that’s a slam dunk.  But I really liked my life without them.

What were the possible reasons:

It could be any of those.  Unfortunately, only some of those are under my control, and I will do my best to control them again starting with day 1 of a new streak tomorrow as the headache arrives with it’s full vengeance.

Suck it migraines.  I hate you.

Barely holding on to day 233…

A few times this last week, I’ve hit the panic button.

I felt a little dizzy, a little off, and then the panic dialog started inside my head:

“Oh no, this is it.  This is where the streak ends.  It was a good streak.  It will be ok.  What do I have going on the rest of the today…tomorrow?  I can handle it if it comes.”

Then, thankfully nothing.

Battling though.  Battling.

The weather.  What. The. Heck.

Rain one day.  Sunshine the next.  Thunder and lightening the next.  Then wind like the house is going to blow away.

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Weather is said to be a migraine trigger.

Honestly, at this point, just throw anything out there, it can be a migraine trigger.

Chocolate?  Trigger.  Wine?  Trigger.  Weather?  Trigger.  Dinosaurs?  Trigger.  Roller coaster?  Trigger.  Looking through a window?  Trigger.  Grocery shopping?  Trigger.

Obviously, sarcasm is involved, yet, if you google anything and migraine trigger, I’m sure it will be found somewhere.  Migraines are not choosy.

That leads me to my anxiety induced panic filled web search and phone calls of this afternoon following a regular visit to my natural foods store where I get the arsenal of my anti-migraine potion.

When I went to purchase Butterbur, they were out.  Not only out, but not sure when they will be getting any more in.  Apparently, there is a problem with the butterbur crop or something?  What the what??!!  Ok, how about Feverfew?  Nope, out of that too.

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Looked online, found my brand easily on a website….out of stock/backorder.

Called around and found a store that carried Butterbur about 15 miles from me.  I’ll be going to pick it up tomorrow.  I’m nervous if it is a different brand.  I’m certainly a creature of habit, and I don’t need any slight change to create a reaction in me.  But more important, I don’t want anything to change in my anti-migraine potion, along with my daily anti-migraine smoothie.  Because 233 days migraine free is amazing.  And I’m not sure which cog of this machine is making it work, but I’m not going to screw any of it up.

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Representing 209

Yes, my area code is 209, but I’m more focused on representing day 209 of no migraines.

I was super nervous to celebrate day 200, or even really acknowledge day 205, which is where my largest migraine free streak up until now had ended.

Yet, here I am.  Day 209.  No kaleidoscope eyes, no dullness for 48 hours with the fear of standing up too quickly for reasons other than a fire due to the extreme headache pain for TWO HUNDRED AND NINE DAYS!  Anti migraine smoothie?  Butterbur?  Feverfew?  B-2?  Plain luck?  Don’t know the reason.  Just thankful.

I wrote on day 197 that I was nervous about going to Vegas, that partying like a rock star (although, let’s be honest, my version of partying like a rock star is likened more to that of a 90 year old rock star these days), but honestly, I was nervous that enjoying multiple cocktails for a couple days in a row may bring on a migraine.

A couple days before our trip, I woke up in the middle of the night and told my husband I didn’t want to go to Vegas.  Not because of my fear of it triggering a migraine, I just wasn’t feeling it.  When I booked the trip months ago, which was anchored by purchasing tickets to see Billy Idol, I was in a Hell Ya! mood, a kick ass Let’s Do This! mood.  I haven’t been feeling that mood lately.  And the more experience I have at this living life thing, the more I have to listen to that voice that says “I don’t want to do this” and go with what feels good.

So, we went to Tahoe.  Familiar, relaxing, beautiful, with some cocktails mixed in there too.  The gambling gods even gave me a shout out to let me know that I was right to listen to my inner voice and go with what feels good by giving me this:

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Thank you Royal Flush.

Catch ya’ on the next one Billy Idol.

Rock on 209.

Migraines just reached a new level of suck.

I’m on day 135 migraine free, which is awesome.

What’s not awesome?  I watched one of my kids get a migraine tonight.

“Mom, I think I’m getting a migraine.  I have spots all over my eyes, and I feel dizzy.”  About 1/2 hour later, killer headache.

This sucks worse than when I get one.

It’s happened about twice over the last 8 years or so that one of my kids has gotten a migraine.  Good odds actually.  But really?  Why is that something that I need to pass down?  Hey, here ya go kid, a big batch of crap, with the name migraine, all for you!

Ironically, I’m happy that I do know what a migraine is and how disabling one can be sometimes.  I’m happy that if tomorrow is a day that my kid tells me they need to stay home because their head is killing them, that I can totally understand and not second guess them.

I hope that migraines do not become a regular occurrence with my kids.  I hope that if they do get one though, that their teachers and coaches can somehow understand that this is not a made up thing to get out of a responsibility, yet a temporary, painful pause button on life as you want it.

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60 days BABY!!!

And, just like that, it’s been 60 days since my last migraine.

The main change…I’ve switched my anti-migraine smoothie to the morning rather than the afternoon.  Don’t know if this is a factor, but it’s the main difference.

My primary doctor also has me taking naproxen sodium for about 7 days per month (guess which 7).  Not sure if that’s doing anything for migraines at all.  He had prescribed it three times a day.  Ya, as I wrote about in the past, my body does not like meds (see Imitrex Fail!)  Therefore, after taking the second dose of the day and feeling shaky, numb, and ‘weird’, I only take it once in the morning now for those 7 days.  Although, it leaves me with a dull headache by the evening.  Not sure if that is “winning” enough for me quite yet.

So, the main constant in my life is still my anti-migraine smoothie, B-6, Butterbur, and Feverfew, aka my anti-migraine potion.

I thought the other day again, about how many times I have made my anti-migraine smoothies (see anti-migraine smoothie perfected), and it’s pretty crazy that I’ve only missed drinking one maybe 5 days tops in the last year and couple months.

One thing I have learned, and I almost weep for have lost out on so many opportunities, is that the small amount at the bottom of the blender that doesn’t fit into my two cups?  It could have been saved.

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My anti-migraine smoothie is kind of like liquid gold.  (Although, the true liquid gold is breast milk.  Any mother that has ever had to pump, knows this.  And any mother that has had to toss away some of that milk for one reason or another, knows it’s like pouring liquid gold down the sink.)  As much as I appreciate my smoothie, and really feel that it helps me, it’s a pain in the a$$ to make every other day.

So, I’ve come up with my brilliant plan to save that little bit at the bottom of each blender batch that I make, and freeze it into bigger portions.  Taking it out of the freezer and layering the little leftovers as I make them.

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I must say, I really do feel like I’m “winning” with this idea.  I just went away recently on vacation, and just brought along frozen containers to thaw rather than all of the ingredients and a blender!

Yes, I’m totally nerdy for feeling like this is a score.  But, whatever makes things easier man!

Happy 60 days!

Active, not athletic.

This week while at work, three high school boys came up and were selling cookies to create funds for their cross country track team.  I asked them about their mile times, and they were totally excited to share them.

The night before, I watched Becoming Alex Morgan about the soccer star with my daughter.  Very cool.

I’ve never really had a huge athletic piece in my life.

I’ve always said that I’m active, not athletic.

‘I play real sports, not trying to be the best at exercising.’  Classic Kenny Powers.  Yet, I don’t even try to be the best at exercising.  I’m like, average, and ok at exercising.  I just go through the motions to get it done.

I’ve done a handful of 1/2 marathons, and one full (bucket list, done.)  Each and every race I’ve done, my husband asks if I’m going to ‘smoke’ the people I’m running with in the race.  And I’ve always replied, “I’m staying with my friends!”

Being an athletic and competitive person, he looks at me like I am truly speaking a different language than one he can understand.

A perfect example of me being active, not athletic (which, by the way, I see no problem with, and in no way do I state that about myself negatively), is my husband’s family reunion volleyball game.  I’m a tall person.  Active.  I believe tall and active were misconstrued for athletic.  Half way through the first FAMILY volleyball game that included kids, and adults, I was pulled aside by not just one of my husbands uncles, but two of his uncles to point out where I needed to be moving, and when, and how I needed to improve. Sorry guys. Active, not athletic.

I like walking, biking, mountain biking (without much uphill, I’ll whine loudly if there’s a lot of uphill), at times running, and I can hold my own working out at the gym too.  Those work for me.  Although, I’m not good at classes at the gym.  Some of my friends love their classes.  I’m ok with admitting the main reason I don’t like classes:  I don’t like being told what to do.  “Push it harder.  Go faster.”  No thanks.  I’m good.

Being that I like biking and mountain bike riding, I tried a spin class.  Once.  Hated it.  Why?

  1. Being told what to do and when.  (I know it’s not a good quality, but at least I’m admitting it.  That’s worth something right?)
  2. I couldn’t walk for about 2 days.  I now know why people bring their own seat cushion things.  Horrendous.

It has been 6-1/2 years now that I have kept a twice a week crazy AM commitment to working out.  My good friend Timaree from http://thenutritionprofessor.com (just about to publish her first cookbook http://foodiebars.com, it’s awesome) and I have met each and every Tuesday and Thursday at 5:00 AM (sometimes even earlier!) since May of 2009.  The only times we have missed a day is if one of us is pretty darn sick, or we are out of town.  I have people ask me all the time ‘Do you still work out with your friend in the mornings?’  Yep.  The other days of the week, we do our own things to stay active and healthy.  The early Tuesdays and Thursdays, it’s basically just auto-pilot.  And it is a pretty great feeling to hit about 2:00 PM and realize that I’ve already worked out for the day (because is seems like it had been yesterday being so early in the morning!)  I’m no hero though, the times that she hasn’t been able to make it, I thankfully reset my alarm for two hours later and roll over!

Being active and working out always has the benefit of being able to fit into the clothes in the closet.  But over the past few years, it’s become much more than that.  When I don’t move, when I’m not active, my emotions and my mental health are affected.  I can physically and emotionally feel when I haven’t been active enough.  For me,it helps with anxiety, and all that comes with that lovely quality of mine.  I wrote how exercise can help change my mental state in a past post, Bad Mood Mama.  The quick fix of endorphins, it usually is the key.

I’m on day 45 of being migraine free, so migraine related anxiety is asleep for now.  Still heading towards that 200+ glory mark though!!!  I’ll take what I can get for now and feel good being ‘ok at exercising!”

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